"Never give your everything to a person so that if they leave, you won't be hurt too much."
Looking back on what we had, I can only see the good. No matter how often I try to find all the red flags you have, I can't because I pushed them to the back and focused only on the good.
I remember the first time you held my hands. I remember we shared ice cream on our date. I remember your first "I miss you" message, and I remember your smile like it was my own.
But why was it so easy for you to walk away?
I was warned countless times that I should guard my heart, be careful, not give too much. But when you experience it, the true love, not the 'butterflies-in-your-stomach kind of love, you're more than willing to break your own rules.
And that's what happened.
I broke my own rules for this person, risking everything–no doubts, just pure love. It was a good feeling. It was something I'd never thought would end but, it ended anyway. It was a crashing, shattering kind of ending. It took everything out of me. I was left lost, confused, and empty.
But the truth is, I don't regret it.
I don't have regrets that I gave everything I could give to you. I don't have regrets that I broke my own rules to attend and nurture the genuine love I had for you.
I don't regret losing you because I know I fought hard and held on longer than I should.
I don't have regrets that I loved you with my core and lost myself in the process.
I don't regret it; instead, I am thankful.
I am thankful because loving you so much, breaking my own heart, and losing myself took away all the things not good and not meant for me.
I am thankful because it took away the lies, the pain, the tears.
I am thankful because I proved that I could love a person that much – genuine and electrifying.
I am thankful because I can now prepare a new room for the deserving love.
I am thankful because I am finally free to open new and more exciting doors of adventures for me.
I am thankful because I will be bolder, wiser, stronger.
I am thankful I lost myself because that means I am meant to find more extraordinary things ahead.